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Sorry for the crappy set guys but there's just something I need to get off my chest, I'm not exactly sure what's going on with me lately all I know is that I don't like it. I don't even know what's going on in my head half the time and that thought is terrifying. I can go from laughing and joking one second and then one little thing happens and it's like a switch in my head is flipped and all I want to do us go home by myself and cry for hours. And the scariest thing is that I can't control it, it happens at the most random and inconvenient times and I hate it. I'm seriously so done with everything and no one even knows how I feel because I'm so good at hiding it. I feel like I should tell someone I feel this way but I don't know if I trust anyone enough, that sounds awful because I have the most amazing friends in the world but in all honesty I don't think I've ever shown any of them my true self entirely. I'm just so confused with everything and I'm beyond stressed out with everything and I feel like I can't get my anxiety under control, maybe I should go get some medication to try and help me figure it out, maybe I should just give up all together...I don't even know what to do anymore. Ugh why do people and life have to be so complicated? Sometimes I wish I didn't have feelings, lately I've been drowning them with alcohol, I know that's bad but so far it's been the only thing that even comes close to helping me cope with all of the things I've been feeling, if things get too bad I'll ask for help but right now it's not something I'm ready to talk about. I see my emotions as a weakness so I never like to let people see me express them but maybe that's part of my problem....I just don't know anymore. Sorry this is a bit depressing and long winded but I just needed to tell someone, I'll hopefully be back to normal soon. Love you guys.
-bailey xoxo ❤